This time last year I was in a bad and tearful place. I felt like the world was falling apart around me, I had no direction, no security and fear was my best-friend. We shared everything. Fear, in many ways, took over my life. I embraced her, indulged in her unrelenting appeals to me. At times in my life when others might have fallen apart I’ve been fearLESS, but this past year, I just couldn’t. A father suffering, mother struggling, relationship hanging by string…I felt powerless. Who was I?

I was once the young, vibrant,compassionate girl people loved. Then I nearly died. And was re-set to Zero. Start all over. Re-learn to Walk. Talk. Write. Read. Who are you!!! And so  I spent last year, and a few before it sort of hanging in the wind. Slowly rediscovering my old self, while trying to also become comfortable in my new skin. Different, but maybe better. I leaned my limitations, and when and how to push them. I forgave myself when I stumbled. I learned to love myself, again. I pushed fear away in favor of her sister, my old friend, Fearless.

This year will be different. This year I will focus on me and only me. If I’m lucky, life will be kind to me and those I love, give us a reprieve from the suffering of the past years. 2008 will be amazing. I can feel it. This is the year I will love myself more than any other. This year I will live in my skin not as a stranger, or temporary resident. I will own it and revel in it and adore it. I’ve leaned heavily on mighty shoulders this year, the angels in my life who listen to me rant and rave and question everything I know and always with an even hand and steady wisdom, guide me and support me when I feel completely and totally alone. To all of you and the readers of this blog, Thank you. I love you all infinitely and unconditionally. This year, we are going to kick some mutha*****ing ass.